December 18, 2012

 

Today was the day I had been waiting for, or rather, we, had been waiting for. After months of planning and “preparation,” it was time to take THE TEST. I told Bryan I would wait a few days longer, as my hopes had been dashed in previous months, but when I woke up that morning I knew I wouldn’t be able to take the anticipation for much longer. What I saw at the end of two minutes was not very clear and definitive. Since I had some time before I had to get ready for work, I went back to bed and laid in the dark, staring at the ceiling and trying to make sense of what I had seen. It definitely looked like a “+”, but the telling line was slightly more faded than what would be just the negative sign.

So, when it was time to get ready for work, I went to the bathroom and stared some more at the test left lying on the counter. I took a picture with my phone. I threw the pee stick away. At that point, I was pretty convinced it really wasn’t anything to get excited about and I would try again tomorrow if there weren’t any other developments that day. But I wasn’t 100% convinced. So I stood over the bed on the side Bryan was still sleeping on. And I stared at him until my burning gaze woke him up. “I have something to show you.” “What is it?” I showed him the picture. And he looked, and he looked. No words. Then simply “I don’t know.” So we left it at that and went about our day (this just happened to be the one and only day this winter that snow fell from the sky...pretty cool!)

Finally, at work, I couldn’t take it anymore. I showed my co-teacher the picture. She had been pregnant before, and informed me that, yes, that did look like a positive. I texted the picture to my sister in Texas, who clearly, without a doubt, texted back “You are pregnant!” I couldn’t believe it. I needed BIG.BOLD.WORDS. So that night I went to Safeway to pick up bread for my mom and a pregnancy test for me. When both Bryan and I were at home that night, I took the Clear Blue Digital test. Before two minutes were even up, the words “Pregnant” came back at me. It was official. We were having a baby! 

 Bryan texted the picture to his best friend right away, and I texted my sister and co-teacher to let them both know they were right :-). We had some grocery shopping to do that night, so we stopped at Subway for dinner before going on to the store. We were both so excited it was all we could think and talk about! Above is a picture of the first onesie we bought for the baby :-).

The Introduction

This journal is to be a nine month work in progress, dedicated to our future son/daughter, who we now so lovingly refer to as our “Baby Bean”. We have been tracking its development since the very first day we knew about him/her, on December 18, 2012, and this is to be an ongoing creative memory log of all that has happened so far, and all that is to happen in the coming months. Unfortunately, this pregnancy has not been “average” in terms of what to expect for the mom and dad-to-be, but we are learning as we go. There are good days and there have been bad days. And despite other distractions that get in the way of what should be the joys of pregnancy and anticipation of our new little bundle to come, we are taking each day at a time and counting our blessings. Luckily, Baby Bean is progressing as normal and for that we are so thankful. We pray for continued health and growth for our baby, and know that he/she is wrapped in God’s loving arms as it is being carefully knit together in its mother’s womb. Prayerfully, as we go forward, we hope for more milestones reached that we can all rejoice in together! Mama is keeping her eye on the prize, due to come in late August 2013!