How am I feeling right now? I have to learn to separate my
joyfulness of our pregnancy and the anxieties over my heart. In one sense, I
have a complete calm as I know I am being prayed over consistently by family and
friends. I have received affirmation from some that this pregnancy will go
well. But when the doctors call and email between each other and myself, and
there is a “rush” in getting to important appointments, I can’t help but worry
they know something I don’t. And no, I don’t want to hear other people’s
pregnancy “war” stories. Everyone has their battle, and this one is completely
unique to us. That’s why we have no idea what the future will hold. It’s a
“wait and see” game, but we are keeping our faith to keep holding on. A good
friend simply asked me, Tell me four things the new diagnosis of
hypertrophy means to you…
And my response:1. Im terrified of dropping dead and leaving Bryan and my parents.
2. I feel guilty for the stress it’s causing the people who know and the people who will know.
3. I’ve never dreaded a dr appt more than this one in my life.
4. I’ll be happy with anything as long as they don’t tell me to abort the baby.
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